Something harder than breaking up

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

People often assume that breaking up is one of the hardest things to do in a relationship. That being the one who initiates it the hardest because of things that might ruin the image of the person due to some reasons of the breakup. What I think is harder is to actually give up the person you love. She did break up with me. I cried and I cried to the point that i drank up all the alcohol in the world just to ease te pain. The break up was hard to handle in its own self. She was cold to me uttering words that I thought she would never say. I will never forget that day.She called me a few number of times after that, I felt that there was this ray of light that signified hope, that our relationship has not come to an end. Finally she tells me that she can't take it anymore. That the situation we are currently in is still unacceptable. I tried so hard to make it work but I guess there are some things that are out of your reach. You cannot please everybody. It hit me, "I guess its time to let you go. Its time to give you up". That did it for me. I cried and cried all over again. Suddenly the feeling of remorse comes over you. As if someone has actually died but nobody really died. I'm really gonna miss everything. Every little thing that constituted our relationship. Goodbye long distance calls, goodbye dreams of being together forever, goodbye at chances and risks to be taken in a relationship, lastly, goodbye love. We gave it a try but it still didn't work. I loved you with all my heart and gave you everything that I could give. I pray that the next one you meet and be with would not necessarily be the man of your dreams but be the right one for you. Take care always, may God bless you in your future endeavors

john mayer interview teasers number 2

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

as the two gifted artists are gearing for the third and final installment of the higly succesful k&j live series, now they present their fans with a taste of whats more to come. In an interview with Mayer by MTV he says "Although I've been busy working working with my alatest album, I'm really excited to work with Kiwi again". The grammy award wining playlist maker Kiwi Vergara coments that "its gonna be great so you guys better watch out for it".Check it out soon, only at http://kiwivergara.multiply.com

gig night!

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

yesterday didn't really seem to be happy in my life. For starters, niki's grandmother was rushed to the hospital because she was vomitting blood and the father of my batchmate just died. To add to that another batchmate and friend is also dying soon. Plus this other secret I'm not supposed to divulge about some girl whos also a good friend. Too much sadness for me to take in one day. "Isa-isa lang sana", was just the words I was saying to myself the whole of yesterday. I got to drink them off at Chris' gig at marty's. It was fun really, hahahaha.I even sang a song which was really awful. I was out of note. Couldn't reach the high ones. Moe practice for me in the videoke I guess.hahahaha. But it was all good, it was a great experience all in all.hahaha. Sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. And this girl thats the subject in one of Chris' songs showed up to me and Chris' surprise.hahahaha. He wasn't prepared for it, I just laughed my socks off. Hey, if you guys reading this stuff are in any way free next tuesday, swing by Marty's(just beside elorde gym at sucat road) at around 9pm. Its a great place and you get to see a marvelous artist perform..All in all with the ups balancing with the downs., it was an okay night. I'm hoping next tuesday would be even better. I can't wait..

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